Dear 2018
I am very happy because you have passed
Because of what? It's the hardest year for me
To be honest, this year is very difficult for me, every day is very difficult even after happiness comes always feels hard to maintain
Is it just me or has 2018 been such an emotionally and challenging year? I don't know, but that's what I felt after passing a year ago
maybe I feel, nothing special during 2018,
None at all,
Even certain dates that are usually considered special this year are normal,
Just ordinary,
If disappointed comes or sadness comes by, I always think that it is karma from 2017 that has disappointed many people and myself, even I am very sorry, really I am sorry for 2017
Sometimes I don't want to hope for the future, because I'm afraid of being disappointed
Actually, there is so much hope in 2018
But it's not as easy as imagined
Very difficult
Many times disappointed until finally still disappointed again
Okay, I'm fine
I try to be sincere
until finally, I was at the point where I gave up
2018, there are many who stay away
Those who are close away
far farther away
I'm afraid of being alone, really
but on the other hand, I hate people, because even in the midst of people I always feel alone
okay, do you think I'm sad? Yes, sometimes haha
the nightmare I often experienced in 2018 made me afraid to sleep alone in the dark even for a nap I was afraid of
So please give me a beautiful dream and I will struggle to make that beautiful dream a reality
I hope
hi 2019, welcome to the new year
learning from experience is more difficult than I learned in class
therefore I often repeat the same mistakes
really stupid
my hopes remain the same and I always say before I fall asleep at night
2019 ...
please make me happy and be able to maintain happiness
I like to be fierce, I like to be angry, because of that I can protect myself and the people around me
I am happy but not happy
I beg for 2019
I keep a lot of people's hopes for me and I don't want to disappoint them anymore
because I hope and be disappointed
I don't want that to happen to them
One more
Happy New Year
may happiness come to me and always with me
amin
With Love,
Chae
