Dear 2018
I am very happy because you have passed
Because of what? It's the hardest year for me
To be honest, this year is very difficult for me, every day is very difficult even after happiness comes always feels hard to maintain
Is it just me or has 2018 been such an emotionally and challenging year? I don't know, but that's what I felt after passing a year ago
maybe I feel, nothing special during 2018,
None at all,
Even certain dates that are usually considered special this year are normal,
Just ordinary,
If disappointed comes or sadness comes by, I always think that it is karma from 2017 that has disappointed many people and myself, even I am very sorry, really I am sorry for 2017
Sometimes I don't want to hope for the future, because I'm afraid of being disappointed
Actually, there is so much hope in 2018
But it's not as easy as imagined
Very difficult
Many times disappointed until finally still disappointed again
Okay, I'm fine
I try to be sincere
until finally, I was at the point where I gave up
2018, there are many who stay away
Those who are close away
far farther away
I'm afraid of being alone, really
but on the other hand, I hate people, because even in the midst of people I always feel alone
okay, do you think I'm sad? Yes, sometimes haha
the nightmare I often experienced in 2018 made me afraid to sleep alone in the dark even for a nap I was afraid of
So please give me a beautiful dream and I will struggle to make that beautiful dream a reality
I hope
hi 2019, welcome to the new year
learning from experience is more difficult than I learned in class
therefore I often repeat the same mistakes
really stupid
my hopes remain the same and I always say before I fall asleep at night
2019 ...
please make me happy and be able to maintain happiness
I like to be fierce, I like to be angry, because of that I can protect myself and the people around me
I am happy but not happy
I beg for 2019
I keep a lot of people's hopes for me and I don't want to disappoint them anymore
because I hope and be disappointed
I don't want that to happen to them
One more
Happy New Year
may happiness come to me and always with me
amin
With Love,
Chae
December 29, 2018
January 03, 2018
Happy Anniversary Scenis Tamodachi 010110
Stamodachi is a topic I want to tell to all of you, about when and where I met, how it happened, what was I said at the time and the similarities and resemblances we have.
First, I want to tell what is stamodachi. Maybe you find the name is quite strange. But, this is the name of a friendship that I live with my nine tough women.
Why our friendship's name is stamodachi, all of it have a meaning, which come from a Japanese word 'Tomodachi' which is mean 'Friend', and it becomes stamodachi because the creative idea from us to make it looks more unique and attractive,
actually the 's' at the front has an abbreviation itself. but it is a secret so I will not tell you okay. :)
When and where I met them?
(14 July 2010) at the first time, I stepped into past puberty and live far from my both parents. So, entering a period of high school days, first time living at a boarding school that the location is far apart from home. When even then various feeling like fear, doubt, sadness, happy and proud. But on the other hand I believe that I'm living right now is full with the desire for my both parent and I'm sure they believed in me even though I was far apart with the family but I could, could undergo day to day activities and independent schools. I met them (stamodachi) on the first day I entered my new residence in boarding school.
Upon entering the room, there was some bed and I realized that I did not alone occupy this room, but with I also shared this room with the others (before I know stamodachi yet). After some time, I have spent with entering items into a closet in the room.
how it happened?
after that, I had gathered in the middle of the room with the others to get to know each other, starting from that day until the most important thing, why? Because after undergoing various events with them, many changes happen in themselves. they, stamodachi friend of my tough woman, they are nine tough woman who is ready after one another because love and sincere, they are constantly reminded and prohibit and rectify any mistakes in doing if among us do it, they are the first to know about the good news that I experienced, they are where I ran short of fatigue due to a problem or a school assignment, they are the first ones I met after a long school holidays, they stamodachi is part of life and they are all her in my life.
what first we talked about?
introduction, we get to know each other, ranging from full name to a familiar name and home address and date of birth, even our mutual asked about their nearest and ask about things in love, we each ask to know one another as well as about the reasons for choosing this pesantren. All we ask is to know each other better.
what we had in common?
stamodachi, after a lot of the time we spent together, we mutually realize that a lot of similarities and resemblances that we have had from the face as well as how to dress. but it really did not bother but we were happy because we realize we are complementary and we're looking to be a true friend. Even our attitude and nature was sometimes often said others are similar to the reasons we were always together, we think it's a compliment because we love anyone else noticed our friendship and to assess her with a good thing, thank ya.
Essentially, they are my true friends,
stamodachi.
First, I want to tell what is stamodachi. Maybe you find the name is quite strange. But, this is the name of a friendship that I live with my nine tough women.
Why our friendship's name is stamodachi, all of it have a meaning, which come from a Japanese word 'Tomodachi' which is mean 'Friend', and it becomes stamodachi because the creative idea from us to make it looks more unique and attractive,
actually the 's' at the front has an abbreviation itself. but it is a secret so I will not tell you okay. :)
When and where I met them?
(14 July 2010) at the first time, I stepped into past puberty and live far from my both parents. So, entering a period of high school days, first time living at a boarding school that the location is far apart from home. When even then various feeling like fear, doubt, sadness, happy and proud. But on the other hand I believe that I'm living right now is full with the desire for my both parent and I'm sure they believed in me even though I was far apart with the family but I could, could undergo day to day activities and independent schools. I met them (stamodachi) on the first day I entered my new residence in boarding school.
Upon entering the room, there was some bed and I realized that I did not alone occupy this room, but with I also shared this room with the others (before I know stamodachi yet). After some time, I have spent with entering items into a closet in the room.
how it happened?
after that, I had gathered in the middle of the room with the others to get to know each other, starting from that day until the most important thing, why? Because after undergoing various events with them, many changes happen in themselves. they, stamodachi friend of my tough woman, they are nine tough woman who is ready after one another because love and sincere, they are constantly reminded and prohibit and rectify any mistakes in doing if among us do it, they are the first to know about the good news that I experienced, they are where I ran short of fatigue due to a problem or a school assignment, they are the first ones I met after a long school holidays, they stamodachi is part of life and they are all her in my life.
what first we talked about?
introduction, we get to know each other, ranging from full name to a familiar name and home address and date of birth, even our mutual asked about their nearest and ask about things in love, we each ask to know one another as well as about the reasons for choosing this pesantren. All we ask is to know each other better.
what we had in common?
stamodachi, after a lot of the time we spent together, we mutually realize that a lot of similarities and resemblances that we have had from the face as well as how to dress. but it really did not bother but we were happy because we realize we are complementary and we're looking to be a true friend. Even our attitude and nature was sometimes often said others are similar to the reasons we were always together, we think it's a compliment because we love anyone else noticed our friendship and to assess her with a good thing, thank ya.
Essentially, they are my true friends,
stamodachi.
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